Happy Happy Day

Happy Happy Day today! Why leh?

First, my mum decided to shift the Hi-Fi from the living room to my room. MUAHAHA!!!
Taylor Swift and Yui playing in my room 247 since this morning.

Damn nice to relax. With the Hi-Fi next to my bed. Song ah~ Laid there the whole day. xD

Dinner when to TGI Fridays makan. Ordered the set meal. Had Fried Mac & Cheese and Friday's Cheeseburger. DAMN GOOD. After makan only remembered wanted to take photo. Too bad.

Came home watch Man United vs Liverpool. Man U LOST!!! WOOT!!! DAMN DAMN HAPPY!!! Now if Arsenal wins West Ham, my day is complete. COME ON ARSENAL!

Yui - Again, the song I cannot stop listenning too

Artist: Yui
Title: Again


Yume no tsuzuki oikaketeita hazu nano ni
Magarikunetta hosoi michi hito ni tsumazuku

Ano koro ni mitai ni tte modoritai wake janai no nakushitekita sora wo sagashiteru
Wakattekuremasu you ni gisei ni natta you na kanashii kao wa yamete yo

Tsumi no saigo wa namida janai yo zutto kurushiku seotte kun da
Deguchi mienai kanjou meiru ni
Dare wo matteru no
Shiroi NOOTO ni tsuzutta you ni motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
Nani kara nogaretainda
Genjitsu tte yatsu

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Wasurechaisou na yoru no mannaka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan

Ayamaranakucha ikenai yo ne aa gomen ne
Umaku ienakute shinpai kaketa mama datta ne

Ano hi kakaeta zenbu ashita kakaeru zenbu
Junban tsuketari wa shinai kara
Wakattekuremasu you ni sotto me wo tojitanda
Mitakunai mono made miendamon

Iranai uwasa ni chotto hajimete kiku hatsugen docchi
Mukaiattara tomodachi datte
Uso wa yamete ne
Fukai HAATO ga iradatsu you ni karadan naka moeteirun da
Hontou wa kitai shiten no
Genjitsu tte yatsu

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Susumu tame ni
Teki mo mikata mo kangei jan

Douyatte tsugi no DOA akerun dakke kangaeteru
Mou hikikaesenai monogatari hajimatterun da
Me wo samase me wo samase

Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou
Yarinokoshiteru koto yarinaoshite mitai kara
Mou ichido yukou

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan

Dun understand? Google the translation or watch it on Youtube. And I'm suppose to be studying for IT. Great... Just great...

I was suppose to study...

The misery continues... I got my IT result and I failed. As usual... Study so hard also fail. Got a 14/40. Wasted 26%. Almost a quarter gone. How to aim for D or even a C? Unless I pass the finals with flying colours, which is impossible. Dun even know if I can pass the damn paper.

After hearing of my result, I told myself I would stay in the library and study for my OB. HAHA! I WAS YOU KNOW AT SOME POINT... until she came in the library and sat down a few feet away from me to my right. Most people in college knows I fancy her, but today she looked absolutely gorgeous.

I dun normal look at her body as her face with that angelic smile is enough to make pound like crazy but somehow, I think it was the clothes she wore today that make me looked at her body and OH MY... what a sight it was. She wore 2 shirt, the inner one was white and the outer one was a long sleeve light blue shirt. It was tight and it hug her body tightly, accentuating her curves in a nice manner. I never really looked at her boobs, heck I didn't even know she had boobs but today they where there, big, firm and supple yet softer than the pillows I sleep on. I wish I could sleep on those "pillows". She kept walking up and down the library, and I swear each step she took her boobs would jiggle and bounce nicely. I thanked God right at that moment. After each time she walked by and her back is facing me, of course I will continue looking at her. Her shirt really gave her a nice hourglass body every guy dreams of, small waist followed by nice wide hips. And the black tight jeans she wore emphasized her figure even more. After nice wide hips comes her hot tight ass. As I looked at it sway from the left to the right and back again to the left, I just took it all in slowly. Like her boobs, I didn't know she had an ass that was so great. Something I do know is her nice long legs. Well, that's all I can say about the legs, it's a pair of nice long legs in jeans.

After seeing that, studying was the last thing on my mind. I did sat there, staring at my notes but my mind was wandering somewhere. Imagining her smile, imagining that I was playing and messing up her hair as she would give me this smirk or cheeky grin and asked "Why are you playing with my hair?", imagining she was my girlfriend and that I could hug her, and she hugged me back and everything around me doesn't matter. Then I go on wishing if only she could be that special someone I would share a special connection together with. Guess I got all these ideas for the recent manga I mentioned.

I sometimes wonder if someone could actually be so crazy over someone he/she doesn't even know, or am I just fooling and deceiving myself to just make myself happy. Seriously I dunno, but I do know I wish I could have that hug with her. That would be nice.

Feeling a little sad and lonely

It seems like this blog of mine is for me to write my feelings down when I'm down or feeling sad till I can't contain them anymore. I also notice I write alot when my finals are nearby and that's when I'm definately feeling alot stress. Well, it's that time again.

My finals are just round the corner in about 3 weeks time. To add to that, my International Trade mid term result are out, but I dun have the guts to check them. I also have my Organizational Behaviour final paper this coming Thursday so yea... I'm stressed. I also got back my Small Business final result today and I got a 34/50 which I not too happy about. I was hoping for at least a 40 as I was aiming for a HD for this subject. All these little things are piling up and making me unhappy. But all these minor upset is just the peek of the ice-berg.

What's worst than all this is a much more painful feeling. It's like a small cut and you are slowly bleeding to death from that little cut. I dun really know how to express this painful feeling I feel but I guess it's the feeling of longing. Recently, I meet some friends who came back from overseas and they all got new girlfriends. I observed how they happily talked to each other, gave each other little pecks on the cheeks and being lovey dovey and maybe that's what I long for.

I also just read this manga called Mysterious Girlfriend X and it's about this boy and girl having a special relationship and they are able to communicate their feelings through a special bond. It shows how their relationship progresses slowly and no matter what problems they face, with the special bond they have, it will eventually get them back on the right path. I find that some what sweet and touching. Maybe that is what I long for, to have a special relationship with a special someone. If only I could find that special someone just like Urabe Mikoto. Sigh... I think I ended up falling in love with a manga character, damn love her sweet smile.